Missing my Girl Friends!

I miss my girl friends! I miss our bonding. We have different lives now in different parts of the world. Sigh! I miss the days when we were together. Eating, talking, and laughing together. It's different now since we are more focus in our respective careers. We need to grow up somehow. And growing up connotes a big change in our lives. That's life!

We are now in our transition phase. We have to move to the next level or else we will be stuck in our present situation forever. This is so sad. But we need this for our benefits. For our future. I'm sure someday we will meet again. I am looking forward to that day...

Bonding Time!

My cousin and I are going out together lately. I'm happy that I have found a new company in the person of my cousin. It's been two Saturdays that we went out and really bond. We eat out and drink coffee.

Last Saturday, we buy new shoes together. We had so much fun malling. We have lots of activities planned ahead. I just hope that it would be materialized.

I am looking forward to our next outing. I am sure that it would really be a good time once again. I love my new shoes and pants! =)

Lunch date!

I had a lunch date yesterday with one of my best friends, My! I miss her so much! She has a family of her own and I thought that I could not disturb her anytime I wanted. It's really a different feeling to be connected with your long time friend. There's a different bond between the two of us.

Although before, we have our misunderstandings but we were very young back then. It's a college drama. I've realized that it really strengthens the ties between two people when they are bonding together like eating out and going to malls together. These things will move you closer to each other and get familiar with each other more. You will feel more relax and uninhibited. You tend to open up more also.

Familiarity counts a lot in every relationship. Still, there should be respect and trust in both parties. My and I were planning to make our friendship deeper by going out of town soon when the time is free for the both of us. But simple lunch date is good enough to re-bond!

Hopeless Romantic No More!

I've met a new friend. He said that i am a hopeless romantic! That no one could change my mind. I'm fixed already because I am in love with someone. Maybe I am! I am in love with someone who doesn't love me back. Someone who just sees me as a friend. I was waiting for him in vain. I revolved my world around him. And that's the truth. I have to face this sad truth. I guess my new friend is right. If he really wants me or love me, he should have had me. I think that he really just sees me as a friend. No more no less! I'm so stupid! I think it's time for me to move on and move forward. Or else I'm gonna be stuck with no one. And I'm gonna grow old alone. I don't want that. I should try and open my heart and mind to other people who could be "the one" for me. Somebody who could give me the love that I really deserve and be happy.

I am not getting any younger anymore! I have to do this for myself or else time will pass me by. I guess somebody needs to slap me on my face about that so i can wake up and face the reality. I can do it. I believe i can. I deserve real love!

I would still keep the friendship and accept that it would be just that. He is not my prince that I thought he was. I was deeply asleep for the past 2 years. Waiting for him would only be a waste of time. There would be no justice to it. Enough of my craziness! I feel good now..

In love!

It's hard to keep a feeling that's inside me for the longest time. (sigh!) I want to shout to the whole world that i love him! I can't even tell my friends about it because from the start they don't like him. It's like I'm the only one sticking to him all this time. After all the heartaches I've experienced with him, still every time he comes back and say sorry, I allow him to enter once again into my life. Some of my friends think I'm stupid. That my feelings is not reciprocated. I don't know! I just feel that he has a good soul and needs a chance.

I'm happy that I've met a new friend in Gaye! She understands what I'm feeling! I want to be free and be happy on what I feel inside my heart. I want to enjoy this feeling! Love should make us happy and not sad right? I don't want to worry too much on what others may say. I appreciate their concerns about me. I know that they don't want me to get hurt. If this love will not have a happy ending at least I've given myself a chance to love someone.

He may not be the ideal guy for me. I don't like some of his traits. He irritates me. He annoys me. But he has his way of making me happy. I'm happy with him! No other guy has given me the kind of attention and care that he has given me. I don't know what tomorrow brings but for now i want to cherish this feeling. He may not know what i really feel for him because I don't have the intentions of telling him but at least I would stop denying it to myself! I am in love!