In love!

It's hard to keep a feeling that's inside me for the longest time. (sigh!) I want to shout to the whole world that i love him! I can't even tell my friends about it because from the start they don't like him. It's like I'm the only one sticking to him all this time. After all the heartaches I've experienced with him, still every time he comes back and say sorry, I allow him to enter once again into my life. Some of my friends think I'm stupid. That my feelings is not reciprocated. I don't know! I just feel that he has a good soul and needs a chance.

I'm happy that I've met a new friend in Gaye! She understands what I'm feeling! I want to be free and be happy on what I feel inside my heart. I want to enjoy this feeling! Love should make us happy and not sad right? I don't want to worry too much on what others may say. I appreciate their concerns about me. I know that they don't want me to get hurt. If this love will not have a happy ending at least I've given myself a chance to love someone.

He may not be the ideal guy for me. I don't like some of his traits. He irritates me. He annoys me. But he has his way of making me happy. I'm happy with him! No other guy has given me the kind of attention and care that he has given me. I don't know what tomorrow brings but for now i want to cherish this feeling. He may not know what i really feel for him because I don't have the intentions of telling him but at least I would stop denying it to myself! I am in love!